This is my first post despite the fact that I created my blog several weeks ago. The reason, is because I am a perfectionist. I understand that perfection is not something that I can actually attain. I really do understand that, but I still seem to hold myself to that standard. "I don't want anyone to see my blog until it is ready. And it isn't ready until it is just perfect!" For goodness sake I wanted to have a list of every song I want on my ipod in the order I want them before I load them up! Isn't that ridiculous!?!
The reason I am saying all of this is because it is something I am adding to the list of things I need to work on. I have known I am a perfectionist for some time now but I have never really realized that it is not a good thing. Even though I know that I am not perfect I still expect perfection from myself. Why? God knows that I am not perfect and He loves me as I am...without having done anything. Who am I to have higher standards than God? (Pride, old firend! How are you?)
I think that it is a good thing to do your best and to use the gifts and talents that God has given you, but we need to keep perspective. If I continue to strive towards perfection, if I continue to act as if it is possible for me to achieve, am I robbing God of the glory He is due?
I don't mean to say that we shouldn't do all we can but we shouldn't lie about who we are. It is one thing when someone is such a great person (or at least that is how they seem) and they do great things. That is great but don't we expect that from them? How much better a witness is it to say I am _____ (prideful, a liar, etc. etc.) but God loves me and I do this for Him!"
I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but there you have it. And now I will post without editing for clarity!
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